today is.... hapless

when my sadness that is thin like a withered flower,
cannot fall asleep because of these tangled years,
i cling to the rough sigh
that would eat deep into my heart,
if i collected tears of a thousand years,
would it be enough to show my heart,
at the end of the sky
the sunset glow has left
today again i linger on...

as the frail sunshine of early dawn,
is woken up by its last night's dream,
my gloomy dreams of yesterday,
disappear into the legend
if i collected wishes of a thousand years
would it be enough to show my heart
at the end of the field
the sunshine has left
leaving me to linger on...

as the low wind wandering alone
loses its way
breathing hard
i ease my sorrow in this world
with the raindrops of noon
if i collected love of a thousand years
would it be enough to show my heart
at the end of the sky
the moonlight is sleeping
today, again i linger on...

if i collected longings of a thousand years
would it be enough to show my heart
at the end of the field
the rising sun is shining
today again i linger on

today, again i board on emotion roller coaster.... the urge to scream my heart out and crying and cursing is beating inside. still cant figure out whats wrong... somehow i will let it linger in me until i finish my assignment... i just realized that it help me to stay focus hehehe... plus i need my personal time to study as the exam timetable is already out... i have exam on 11 and 19 of June... do i still have time to study... hehehhe.... maybe i should let stay forever on that rollercoaster having my personal time... eating at seoul house, spazzing on heechul, being a couch potato..... will i able to excel in exam if i continue my life like this...i doubt that... like mr Kim Su Il said... "You ... terrible...terrible student! you work hard...read book dont waste money!" hahaha....
i miss my family, my babe (zulee), fake-mummy (tazzy), my best frens laney and aizat..., kae, hanin, adlina, mira, and of course fake daddy (kevin J. poyer)